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topics of cancer

by riife

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nellie deeply earnest and incredibly poignant, this album is so lovely! Favorite track: topic 2 | life, the banshee.
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1.
some of us got claws some of us got fangs some of us got stingers yuh, but me, i was born with these pinchers ~ and i was born with these vice-grips that cling to love things that are fucekd up things that i hate that i just can’t get away
2.
for every moment there’s a home not far from you for every home there’s a feeling that grabs ahold of you for every feeling there’s a figure staring back at you for every figure there’s a stillness just waiting for you ~ and in that stillness there’s a banshee and in that banshee is a legend and in that legend is her wail and in her wail is her warning ~ for every warning there’s a lullaby he wants to sing to you for every lullaby he sucks a piece of your soul from you for every soul there’s rapture he’s named after you for every rapture there’s a grave just waiting for you ~ but in that grave there’s a life and that life is your song and that song is his end and in his end is your revenge yuh gotta get your revenge! get your, get your revenge! ~ feel all the feels that kill you inside fight all your demons take back your life feel all the feels that kill you inside fight all your deaths take back your life
3.
donno much about time or broken minutes donno much about the past or where it’s going donno much about the future or how to fix it but i know about now and i want you in it donno much about diamond but i could tell yuh about the rough donno much about sleep these days but i could tell yuh about the rust i need a cobbler, not just another doctor lord knows my soul’s in disrepair i need a cobbler, not just another doctor lord knows my soul’s in disrepair know too much about these times and the broken in them know too much about the shit 'n' the bullies it comes from know too much about our minds but not where they’re going but sometimes i don’t wanna know sometimes we don’t wanna know sometimes i don’t wanna know sometimes we don’t wanna know we need a cobbler, not just another doctor lord knows our soul’s in disrepair we need a cobbler, not just another doctor lord knows our soul’s in disrepair to fall in love with an idea, then let it break your heart why kill your dreams? why kill your dreams? before they’re even awake? so go on & fail, go on & fail at everything if that’s what keeps you true cuz genius is 1% edison, 99% you ~ it's been a long, introspective journey. i'll be transparent and say i'm critical re: my own conclusions, but i'm still in the existential & ideological discovery and experimental phase of my identity. "all life is an experiment, the more experiments the better..." has been a mantra of mine for most of my weirdo teen & adult life. i like evolving & being an iconoclast (in whatever I can) but especially with social conventions since i represent the face & profile of the colonizer. i've questioned authority, myself, & my soul most of my life in an effort to reach some type of existential freedom to transcend as much of my learned socializations as i can, such as: class, privilege, toxic masculinity, Christian spirituality, etc. it’s no surprise, but leonard cohen’s “i have tried in my way to be free” from “bird on a wire” has always been another guiding light for me to refer back to when i question what it means for me to be free. why do I want to be free? free how? free from who? free from what? free to do what? there has to be a conceptual force keeping me from being free in order to be conceptually free myself from it. so what is that force? so what is that force?
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the self needs saving from the self, sometimes myself needs saving from myself, sometimes ourselves need saving from ourselves, sometimes the world needs saving from the world, sometimes ~ the world needs saving from the self, sometimes the self needs saving from the world, sometimes the world needs saving from myself, sometimes and myself, i need saving from the world, sometimes the world needs saving from ourselves, sometimes and ourselves, we need saving from the world, sometimes
5.
just because the world is fucked up, doesn’t mean we’re fuck-ups ~ so help me cuz i don’t wanna be a danger to myself anymore so help me cuz i wanna be a danger to this fucked-up world but there’s all these tiny cancers killing me inside but it’s time to take back, to take back my life ~ and i heard there's a place i can go it’s just down the road at the unconventional center where they’re curing things like self-love dysmorphia and they’re researchin’ things like how to smash the patriarchy ~ the center said, “as long as we’re honest with ourselves we’ll be fine” but just to keep one thing in mind while we’re outside pickin' fights, they can beat us down all they want, but they can’t beat us cuz we’re one big cancer now and we’re coming for their love” ~ and i heard there's a place we can go it’s just down the road at the unconventional center where they’re curing things like toxic masculinity and they’re researchin’ things like how to smash the patriarchy ~ just because the world is fucked up, doesn’t mean we’re fuck-ups
6.
so there’s this banshee... embracing death, she’s been watchin’ over me she reminds me of men and their mendacity she reminds me yuh gotta get your revenge ~ and her death knell is just around the bend for all these grand narratives while they’re in bed yuh, she’ll cut off, she’ll cut off their heads she says, that’s how she’ll get her revenge ~ yuh, doesn’t this sound of revenge just feel so seductive ‘n’ sweet like an orgy of grim reapers coming for the colonizers’ wet dreams ~ she's taught me "living well is the best revenge" yuh, now i can relate to what she meant eat all my cake, be all about love, 'n' feel myself again fuck on my cake. all night. in front of them ~ cuz seducing myself is my revenge and giving them hell is our revenge and shredding their cred is my revenge and death to all false grand narratives ~ the banshee, she's always with me giving life to my capacities she rings her bells ‘n’ hooks me in she transforms her power and so can i *“colonialism [it] was a start up” and for so long – i admit – i bought in so i’ll divest from this mess cuz this is the hill that i’ll gladly die on ~ and as i die. i will rise and as they die. we will rise. and as they die. i will rise and as they die. we will rise. *somnath bhatt
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death is my pilgrimage, i won’t stop ‘til i get there i can ascend above all these masks i wear and i just wanna star in my own reality cuz all my co-stars they just wanna be, wanna be me ~ this tender meat inside me, who can it feed? waters are rising ‘n’ boilin’ over millennial heat cancers grow on the inside, tensions run deep detached from the world, attached to new deaths, new meat ~ cuz i was born...i was born with these pinchers and i was born with these vice-grips that cling to love and things that are fucked up things i hate that i just can’t get away
8.
well, who said i can’t have fun while i’m dying? tell bob, i’m busy dying so i can be reborn, whatta time to be alive, with all these cancers, baby! divin' in the deep blue me, to find some answers... ~ after years on the ocean floor i found my rebirth chart it said, *“make living (not dying) itself an art” “how long yuh gonna let that trap, gonna let that blackhole just suck your soul?” “cuz remember, you were born in *the week of the unconventional” ~ i’m molting! i’m out of body! oh-em-gee, ah-ha-ha-ha i’ve entered the void what is life? ah-ha-ha-ha now i’ll mixologize my fate! what the forer? ah-ha-ha-ha turn retrograde to lemonade ~ just for fun i like to read my horrorscope, it said…"on the path of life, i took that psycho-path" well, death to false horroscopes cuz i want those daily cliff notes from the cosmos ~ i feel the waves, i watch the waves carry away my old skin **"at first it feels like giant waves...[but then] it becomes the ocean" but i had to listen, listen, listen listen, listen, listen, listen... before ahhh-ha-haa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah before ahhh-ha-haa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ~ life is funny, life is dramatic! oh-em-gee ah-ha-ha-ha the millennials they got their religion! what the forer? ah-ha-ha-ha life is funny, life is dramatic! what is life? ah-ha-ha-ha samsara, sayonara ~ i think i can finally get away baptize my selves in lemonade and retire by the beach, watch that pink horizon, sunset my pain cash all my checks that made hustling the zeitgeist payment for my mind, for my body, payment for my spirit, and for my time

about

topics of cancer is a caricature case study of the songwriter as a cancer sign and the figurative cancers they've witnessed, which is all set to a soundscape of dark-souling and tension-melodic riffs that flow through topics of self-love, neurodiversity, and transforming privilege.

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artist statements
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sound-body of work |

the “sound” element refers to both the vibrations heard through the air and the holding of acceptable views. the “body of work” layer refers to both a cohesive series of creativity, plus me existing in an evolving body that consciously strives towards “the work” to disrupt the status quo, interrogate white privilege, and transform power.

molt |

what does it mean to be a sensitive, introspective masculine-of-center person? what good can i offer from the privileged ritual of years reflecting alone with my thoughts and engaging in the lineage of white male leisure? my profile is embedded with a lot of power. knowing for whom, when, and where to use it is the only way i think i might ever honestly be able to say that i’m living to the fullest. i reference white dude energy of the past, not to regurgitate it, not to perpetuate the cultural supremacy of the white patriarch. instead, to recalibrate whatever composites of art or truth i’ve found in them into repurposed expressions of a new guard of masculinity, one that is neither toxic nor fragile, one that promotes men openly learning and transforming.

rife frequencies |

“generated by a machine built for dr. rife in 1936. the frequencies would devitalize the disease organisms [like cancer], believing that every disease organism had a frequency range and could be affected by its “window of vulnerability.” each disease had its own center frequency, and the radio frequency signal match would be used to eradicate the disease.” rife frequencies have come back as a form of new-age healing. like astrology, i’m fascinated as a zeitgeist observer of how people use modern evolutions of information to create meaning and healing in their lives.

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about riife
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riife is the concept-driven solo project of zach frimmel (he/they), who identifies as a neurodivergent creative and leftist in left field stimulated by subcultures, subjects, and subversions. riife is a self-taught, alt-tuned guitarist who grew up in the florida punk and post-hardcore scene while absorbing influences from murder city devils and david bazan before moving to seattle in 2012. their storytelling is rooted in their english literature studies reflecting on other peoples’ stories, nuances, and humanity. zach currently champions the arts community as northwest film forum’s grants manager, as an intersectional activist, and previously as a music journalist for kexp and the stranger.

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released June 25, 2021

jeff alvarez, drums (2-4, 6-8)
jonathan pease, bass (2-8)
jess kim, banshee crooner (2, 6, 8)
mike sampson, drums (5)
zach frimmel, guitars, lyrics, spocals (all)

artwork by zach frimmel
banshee design "copyright johnny mcmonagle"

all music property of zach frimmel
recorded by jak mckool at whalehouse studio cooperative
produced by jak mckool and zach frimmel
mastered by rachel field at resonant mastering

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