about
topics of cancer is my solo debut & will be released june 25, 2021.
and i finally have a single to share w/ y'all, it's about damn time! *_^
as proud as i am to share my repurposed rage, i'm even more elated to announce that Den Tapes ~ the most beloved cassette label this side of the hellscape ~ will be putting it out!!!
more fun where that came from in next month's release of "topic 4 | self, moon in gemini"
lyrics
donno much about time or broken minutes
donno much about the past or where it’s going
donno much about the future or how to fix it
but i know about now and i want you in it
donno much about diamonds
but i could tell yuh about the rough
donno much about sleep these days
but i could tell yuh about the rust
i need a cobbler, not just another doctor
lord knows my soul’s in disrepair
i need a cobbler, not just another doctor
lord knows my soul’s in disrepair
know too much about these times and the broken in them
know too much about the shit 'n' the bullies it comes from
know too much about our minds but not where they’re going
but sometimes i don’t wanna know
sometimes we don’t wanna know
sometimes i don’t wanna know
sometimes we don’t wanna know
we need a cobbler, not just another doctor
lord knows our soul’s in disrepair
we need a cobbler, not just another doctor
lord knows our soul’s in disrepair
to fall in love with an idea, then let it break your heart
why kill your dreams? why kill your dreams?
before they’re even awake?
so go on & fail, go on & fail at everything
if that’s what keeps you true
cuz genius is 1% edison, 99% you
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it's been a long, introspective journey. i'll be transparent and say i'm critical re: my own conclusions, but i'm still in the existential & ideological discovery and experimental phase of my identity.
"all life is an experiment, the more experiments the better..." has been a mantra of mine for most of my weirdo teen & adult life. i like evolving & being an iconoclast (in whatever I can) but especially with social conventions since i represent the face & profile of the colonizer. i've questioned authority, myself, & my soul most of my life in an effort to reach some type of existential freedom to transcend as much of my learned socializations as i can, such as: class, privilege, toxic masculinity, Christian spirituality, etc.
it’s no surprise, but leonard cohen’s “i have tried in my way to be free” from “bird on a wire” has always been another guiding light for me to refer back to when i question what it means for me to be free. why do I want to be free? free how? free from who? free from what? free to do what? there has to be a conceptual force keeping me from being free in order to be conceptually free myself from it.
so what is that force...?
so what is that force...?
...
credits
released March 29, 2021
jeff alvarez | skins wizard
jonathan pease | non~traditional bass boo
zach frimmel | guitars, spokals [spoken vocals]
jak mckool | producing, recording, & mixing friend-gineer
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recorded 2019-2020 @ whalehouse studio cooperative | seattle, wa
mastered dec 2020 by rachel field @ resonant mastering | seattle, wa
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